♥Don't you think we all need a new identity?♥

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♥May-belle♥
aka Belle, Panda, Milkshake.♥
Officially 16. :D
17th August, leo
Catholic.
"Happy go hyper. :)"
Regent Sec
Regent sec m&d♥
Sec Onefive♥ 2008
Sec Twofive♥ 2009
Sec ThreeSix 2010
Sec FourSix 2011
GRADUATED from Regent Secondary.

psalms 27:4

"A lady that is striving to dwell in the house of the Lord
who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her
who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings."



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Candies♥
♥ Candies. Gummies, Chocolate, you name it!
♥ My sunshine & cupcakes.
♥ Rainbows. Anything colourful for the fact.
♥ PINK.
♥ Pink, brown, green, white, black.
♥ My pets.
♥ Bubblegum.
♥ Music.
♥ Candycane. (original)
♥ Onde Onde (green colour one w suagr inside)
♥ Bubbletea.
♥ Cappuccino, honey green tea, peach green tea, peppermint green tea bubbletea.
♥ Snacks. You shall.. NOT spoil me! :D
♥ Fruits.
♥ Being involved with my friends of different races.

Knives✖
✖ Mostly myself. I get easily tempted, etc.
✖ Hypocrites. Now tell me, who isn't one? I know I am.
✖ Homework. Burn 'em!
✖ Pe. Who started it, anyway?



Dear Santa..

NOT IN ORDER

 Him♥
 Hoodie (Comfy & fuzzy inside)
 Panda doll backpack.
 Wooden Musical box (plays when opened)
 Checkered headphones/earpiece.(cream & brown)
 waist shorts, skirt.
 New lappy.
 Sims3.
 off-white brown/black polka dotted frill umbrella.
 Lava Lamp.
 Beanie hat.
 Heart locket necklace.(Those that can open up to put pics)
 Watch necklace. (Opens up with a touch of a button) (Idk where I threw it to)
 Itouch.
 Sneakers.
 Off-shoulder tops.
 White sneaker-like schoolshoes.
 Floral top w waist skirt & belt.
 Essential Hair mask.
 Liese cocktail hair spray.
 Olympus Pen EP1 DSLR camera.
 brown/white fur Boots.
 Snow globe
 Transparent Umbrella.
 Very 1st Plane ride
 Meet Irwin Zephyr♥
 Learn Piano.
 Meet Ariel♥
 hip-length hair. (:
 Go Poly.
 LIVERPOOL jersey :D
 Black, baby pink, greyish blue shorts.
 Dresses.♥
 More clothes, dammit.
 Prom dress.
 Have a PROM.
 Cream & brown checkered hoodie.
 Baby pink & black skinnies.
 Zy back alive.
 Have Ichigo.
 Pass Math.
 Pass Chinese.
 Be strong.
 Webcam
 bff with Becky, Irwin & Mic, Ariel.♥
 Money.
 My fairytale.
 Travel to Paris, Japan, France, Rome, London, Australia, England.
(爱)

So don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. The stakes are high, the water's rough. But this love is ours.

Heyyyyyyy I'm finally back!
It's been so long, so SO long.
So long that I've totally forgotten that I actually own a blog.
Now that I think of it, I can't remember why I stopped blogging.
Was it cause O'lvls were near?
Ah, O'lvls are long over now.
And here I was, thinking if I should stop blogging completely..
But alas, I am bored and I can't get to sleep yet.
So.. I shall have a brief description on what I've been through.

I am sixteen finally, found my faith and graduated from Secondary School.
So many things have happened and yeah, nothing's quite the same anymore.
But, I am looking forward to the new beginning.
My new phase of life is just about to begin!
I can't wait to get to Poly, but then again..
I'm kindda afraid, actually.
I mean I've heard that Poly life is tougher, I mean whaddya expect right.
I just hope that I'd be finally able to live the life I've always wanted.
Because it just seems like I've totally wasted my Primary & Secondary school life.
Ah well. :/

Anyway.. Christmas is coming really soon, and I'm kindda excited, surprisingly.
Did you know there's a midnight mass for Christmas?
I didn't know. ._.
There's just so many things that I want to do, but where do I start?
Heh. However... >_>
After Christmas I'd have to get back my results..
I'm really afraid.
Cause I feel like even though I've done my best, my best isn't enough.
Oh well.. It's all up to the big and awesome guy up there to decide. :)

Like I've mentioned, alot has happened.
Thanks to the Confirmation Camp that my parents forced me to go,
my life has improved alot. :D
I've broken up and got a new boyfriend and stuff.
And to think.. That I'd be okay with soccer!
All this while, I find soccer SUPER boring.
But.. Thanks to my lovely baby, I am seeing the good side of soccer.
Oh, and did I mention I've fallen in love with a Liverpool jersey?♥
Though it doesn't make me a fan of Liverpool, but..
I know it's awesome.

Of course, I've had my fair shares of ups and downs this year.
Despite this, I feel stronger than before.
Stronger than I thought.
I've just had a friend drama recently,
but I know I've gotta move on.
Because no matter what I do, I'd be the bad guy in their eyes.
And seriously, I'm not the only one at fault.
You may make it seem like I want you back so bad but no thanks.
I have no need for you who don't tell me when I've gone wrong and accept me for who I am.
But I'm not saying I'm so great myself either.
I didn't okay.
Don't put words into my mouth.

It sucks, however, to have planned beforehand and have something go wrong.
For example, I was supposed to be able to meet Denzie,
my "brother" from Malaysia this year.
However, he couldn't make it to Singapore anymore. :(
So there..
And Irwin, we planned to meet up after I was done with my O's, 1 or 2 years ago.
Oh well. Doesn't matter as long as I know we're best buds, yeah? :)
And Michelle, I've missed you, I really do.
You said we'd hang out after O's but, you didn't even contact me after the exams.
Not to mention you didn't tell me about your China trip.
I feel kindda hurt, actually.
You told everyone, yes. But not me.

I know you really care and love me, but..
I can't help but to feel insignificant when you talk about your other friends.
True, they might have spent lots of time with you throughout these 4 years,
but that can never amount to what we've gone through, right?
I was actually hoping you'd ask me out soon cause you miss me.
Just me.
Nobody else.
But you had to bring another friend along.
I don't know where I stand anymore, y'know?
Becky and I are close, that I agree.
However, Becky is Becky and you are you.
I'm not replacing anybody or choosing favourites.
You're special to me just the way you are,
like how she's special to me just the way she is.
My feelings for the both of you will never collide.
And yet, whenever we're together now..
You'd talk to your other friends.

As if you'd rather be with them than me.
What happened?
I miss those days when it was just you and me.
Hanging out like we used to.
Without other people coming into the picture.
I'm selfish, I know.
But how can I not be when I've grown to be so fond of you?

But well, I shouldn't mope around here, right?
I want to tell you how I feel, but I don't want to sound unfair or clingy or anything.
That's why I kept it to myself.
Sometimes I sit and wonder if you missed me like I missed you.

I shouldn't end this post on a sad note. o_o
What should I say now, hmmm..
It just occured to me that I should learn a piano duet with Becky.
And it's decided! :D
Here's the song.
Wish me luck. ;^;



I vividly remember someone mentioning that I have an ability to attract people to me.
Aapparently, one of my seniors whom I've been talking to recently agrees with this statement.
Which is a huuuugeeeeee relief to me cause it boosts my confidence for Poly. :)
I'm gonna make lotsa friends, yeah.
I won't be the depressed left-out girl in class anymore.
Never shall I be known as the "Quiet, Shy girl."
That was never who I was.
Yes, I may be shy at first, but I open up really fast.
Alas, that depends on the person I'm talking to.
Unless I can somehow bring out the outgoing personality in me out.
If not uh..
That's gonna be bad.
o_o

Oh well, I better find something else to do now.
Maybe I'd continue editing my Myth to Reality.
Hee. :D
Ciaoz~

Adelle♥

I heard that everything must come to an end,
but i just can't imagine me without you.

Today was rather horrible for me.
Not during classes, of course.
It's during dance, actually.
Cause today was supposed to be the day for us to have a full-dress rehersal right..
Then when I went to the teacher-in-charge to ask for my costume,
she showed me the costume list and explained that since my name was cancelled, they didn't make my costume.
Standing there, my pupils dilating and breathing heavily, I tried to process everything in my head.

Recently, I sprained my ankle slightly.
That was in february.
My dance instructor (the china one) got me a replacement and cancelled off my costume measurement when I went to see the doctor.
It's just a slight sprain, and SYF wasn't until the end of March!
I've got ample of time to recover, please.
Then right, they didn't un-cancel my name(they also spelled my name wrongly lah, like wth)
And they took the measurements of the temporary replacement for me.
And the costume was made!
Cause since it's either Michelle or I performing,
now it's definately not me because I don't fuggin have a costume.
Of all the absurdities.
And since the replacement's costume is suitable for Michelle, she's gonna dance.
It's so unfair.
But then again, its all a part of life.

And if it's karma or anything, I'm willing to accept it.
Oh well.. Even if it isn't..
I still have to deal with it because it can't be undone.
After trying to regain my composture for awhile,
I asked the teacher-in-charge whether I could go home,
cause I wasn't needed at all.
She said yes I could, and I went to Lewis's house afterwards.
So I feel more or less fine now,
though I'm still disturbed by the thought of all my hard work and efforts going to waste.
I finished my english comprehension all the way (except for summary). :o

And afterwards was kind of funny.
During dinner, Lewis told me to do the same old method when I got home.
"Reach Bukit panjang stn sms me. Reach cck stn sms me. Reach yewtee sms me."
I was like "Okay okayyyyyy."
Hehe.
Our conversation went like this:

Me: Reached bpp dear~
Him: Ok must still report in ok?
Me: Sir yes sir!
Him: =]
Me: Reporting Lot1 sir!
Him: Good! Resume mission! Be alert of enemies.
Me: Reporting yewtee sir!
Him: You're reaching home base soon. Resume mission and be alert!
Me: Ahhh why're you so cute?!
Him: Where got? O.O
Me: Got! Sooo cute!
Me: Mission home sweet home is accomplished. Signing off, your beloved. :D

Heheheh..
Bye~
Tomorrow would be a LONG day.
Like seriously.

Yours truly,
Belle♥

I'd do whatever it takes, to turn this round.
I know what's at stake, I know I've let you down.

Hey there, I've been really busy since the starting of the year.

Like you know, it's the YEAR for me, (like O'lvls, duhhhhh)
and I guess I'm getting along fine with it? (surprising right?)
It seemed really tough in the beginning but I've somehow managed to cope.
I realised just yesterday that being in class was rather okay.
Usually I'd feel very stressed out and can't wait for school to be over or something.



But it's good.
I mean, even for math class and all, besides..
I've done all my homework(well except for english, it takes lots of time to write)..
And I don't feel a thing, no weight, no nothing.
Despite that, I doubt that I can sit alone and revise or do my work continuously for hours.
Okay, now to talk about updates and whatsoever.
I've just patched things up with Lewis;
we had another fight thanks to me and my stupid self.
I do not wish to further elaborate, but I know that everything was my fault.
I was so disappointed and frustrated with myself,
plus I was having cramps and I was really, really tired.
So tired and in such discomfort that I just went to bed once I got home.
Of course I cried and all, and fell asleep after that.
But my father was doing some renovations and all the noise..
I was barely conscious but rather awake(light sleeper),
but I didn't bother opening my eyes.
I could hear him drilling and nailing things and moving about the bed,
but I just tried to sleep.
It was rather hard as thoughts of all our past conversations appeared and all,
and I felt really really bad.
And knowing how much that I've disappointed and hurt him made me feel like I don't deserve to live anymore.
But of course, I'm not suicidal.
I managed to fall asleep afterwards,
due to my body's tiredness.
I kept awaking, due to the discomfort that I had, both mentally and physically.
I kept checking my phone, hoping that he'd sms me.
Eventually he did, at 3.32am.
I felt kind of relieved but I knew that I had yet to apologise to him face to face.
After he reminded me of the things he'd said and all,
he asked me to keep my jacket.
I did so, while he stood up.
I looked up at him with surprise in my eyes,
and he said, "Don't you want it?"
I stood up slowly, eyes brimming with tears as I looked at him.
I hugged him, and he hugged back.
The tears started streaming down one after another.
At that point of time, I felt a mixture of feelings;
I was really touched that he was willing to forgive me and accept me again,
and I felt really bad for all the pain I've put him through,
and that I kept making mistake after mistake.
He noticed my silent crying after awhile,
cause my nose was all runny and I was sniffing.
He asked, "Why're you crying?"
and I told him, and started to cry even harder.
He comforted me by rubbing my back as he hugged me, and wiped away my tears.
Never, ever would I make my loved one hurt again, I thought.
I just couldn't stand hurting the one I loved the most anymore.
Anyway..
Syf's next monday and I'm still unsure who would be pushing the props.
Michelle, or me?
The teacher-in-charge told me that either one of us would perform for syf,
but she would still key in the cca points for my participation of practice and all.
I felt rather offended because I've been working so hard and I've turned up for almost all the practices ever since last year, and if I'm not the one performing it would be a waste.
But of course I kept it to myself.
Though it's unfair, I know that it's a part of life.
I knew that Lewis was going to watch the performance too,
and I really wanted to try my best to perform properly.
But right now I just don't know anything..
And I've just found out today that my F&N O'lvl cooking exam is in 2 weeks time.
Hell, I've not even completed my Decision Making, Decision Making Matrix, Time plan or even the Ingredient & Equipment list!
So I ended up confirming all 4 recipes today.
All that's left to do now is to convert the cooking kitchen units and to plan everything out.
The rest would be easy-peasy, except for the exam itself.
I'm nervous, because for the practice during the March hols,
I've only done my pasta and soup and it took like the whole duration to finish it.
And there's 4 dishes to do, I'm afraid there wouldn't be enough time left.

How? ):
Yours truly,

Belle♥

ready for more
what the hell
rocketier
coming home

I hate goodbyes.

Sooooo people, I had a great weekend, what about you? :D
Right now I'm home alone listening to the radio and cooking mah own dinner.
Spaghetti in chicken broth, chicken sausages and oh what do you know,
I FOUND MACCHA TANGYUANS IN THE FREEZER!!!!! -w-
I wonder where my family went... o.o

ANYWAY, Lewis's birthday wasn't really special.
Sorry dear. ):
He really liked the present, though. ^^
I helped him to put it on and he wore it to school, muahahahahaha ;D
Sooooo I ended up treating him to food during recess (which he still has yet to kill me for) :P
Hmmm.. And during dance I felt really sleepy I felt like sleeping on the spot. :/
After dance he accompanied me, I think?
Oh god I can't really remember.

Ummmm..
As for yesterday, I met Desmond at cck's bus interchange and looked for a seat in Macs.
Not long after, Ernest came, then followed by Yuan Guang and Cheryl.
It was really awkward for me at first,
as I weren't close to any of them except for Desmond.
Not to say I'm very close to him la,
but just that I talk to him often.
So I remained quiet and tried to finish my food before Desmond did.
At first it seemed like I was winning,
except for some leftover fries and my drink was hardly touched.

Bleh. Ended up he finished fist soooo.. I took the drink with me.
Then we circled the library in an attempt to look for a place with a socket and a place to put the laptop.
At first I tried to follow up on what they were up to,
and listened to their instructions.
But after doing my part,
I didn't know what else to do.
I did ask, but I think they didn't hear me bahs... >_>
Yuan Guang seems rather okay after awhile..
Just like Lewis had told me.
So I guess it's good?
But since I didn't do anything much to help out I think I would have to present.
T_T
I don't wanna presenttttttt. :/
I have stage fright. i-i

Afterwards, Lewis came over once he was finished with his project.
We stayed there awhile longer and tried to help out with the project,
but we didn't know what else to do.
Or so we did but we didn't know how to phrase it out in paragraphs I guess?
When everyone was all sian of the project, we all headed our seperate ways.
Lewis and I went to bpp's ntuc and bought mushrooms, rice, vegetable stock cubes, oinions, chicken, etc.
And it was to Lewis's house!

I was really nervous and scared at first,
while we were nearing to his place.
My heart was thumping so hard that he could feel my heartbeat.
I didn't know how to give a good impression to his mother and all,
and I heard that she's rather scary, so I was really afraid. i-i
But in the end after I saw her, I noticed that she kept staring and smiling at me..
I stood at the living room awkwardly as I waited for Lewis to get something from his room.
His mother, who was sitting at the sofa, looked at me, smiled and asked me to sit down.

Out of respect, I pulled out one of the dining chairs and sat on it hesitantly,
staring at the wall and the ceiling.
Afterwards, we started to cook together -w-
But as we were preparing the ingredients halfway,
I froze as I heard many voices outside.
It was his relativessssss i-i
He introduced them to me, and I felt really embarrassed and shy.
<_<
In the end, Lewis said my soup smelt really good,
and the chicken wings, which I had the least confidence in because I didn't marinade it for long and I only used salt and dark soy sauce, and steamed it instead of broiling.
So basically, I was not confident as I was not used to using different ingredients and cooking method for the dish.

When it was time to eat, I felt really nervous as I didn't know whether his family would like it or not.
Apparently, everybody said that it was nice(what a relief).
o.o
After dinner, it was really late, like 9plus already.
So I brought out my math hw for Lewis to teach me with.
He was on msn and he told michelle that I was at his place,
and michelle told me to check my phone.
Heh, she asked me out for lunch.
I asked her if Lewis could come, and she said yes.
Lewis agreed, too.
When I completed my math hw, it was already 10. ):
I said goodbye and thanked his mother, but she didn't seem very happy anymore.
Lewis said it was because it was already so late and I'm still there.
Ahhhh ><

He sent me home, anyway.
As for today, after church, I rushed to the bus stop.
On the way up the overhead bride, I dropped my memory card and it slipped through the gap of the steps.
-.-
Way to go, Mabel.
Luckily for me, I was only on the first few steps.
Feeling like an idiot,
I went to the back of the steps and scanned the grass for the card.
As the grass was littered with rocks and stuff,
it was really hard to find it at first sight.
But actually I was looking at the wrong place.
After that I found it lying on a piece of rock several feet away.
>_>

Then I met Lewis at bpp macs and we walked around.
Afterwards Michelle came and we ate at Mos burger.
I treated Lewis and he had absolutely no say in it :D
After that we bought junkfood;
white grape sparkling juice, a bag of chips and seaweed,
then we headed to Mic's house. :D
As Michelle has never brought a guy home before,
we all agreed that he would "be" my cousin.
:o

And I finally got to see Michelle's new dog. ^^
We played a game, called "I have never",
suggested by Michelle.
One must say a sentence, for example,
"I have never went to India".
If it is the truth, the person who said it doesn't have to drink.
If the other participants have, however, they have to drink.
At one part, Michelle was like, "I have never had my heart broken before."
There was a pause, where Lewis and I looked at Michelle and then back to each other,
and we all took our cups and downed the juice. Lol o_o
In the end, it was rather fun.
I'm glad that Michelle likes Lewis. (:
She said, "Out of all her past boyfriends ah, you're the only one that I don't disagree on lor!"
to Lewis.
H-ha. ._.
Okay, that's all I can remember for now, soooo.
BYE :D

Yours truly,

Belle♥

Take a chance, and break away.

School was longgggggg.
First 2 periods was PE, and we had to run along the park connector. -.-
Then we had history, and I got back my common test paper.
Like what the hellllll, I failed like shit!
My poa wasn't good, either, but it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. (I still failed)
Today, my chinese teacher discussed with me about whether I want to go for Chinese B instead.
Then she was all like, "go home and discuss with your parents,"
but in the end, when I went home to tell my mother about it,
my teacher called home to talk to my mother.
-.-
Then she told my mother to discuss it with my father right..
Before my father was home,
he called.
And he was like, "your teacher called me,"
like what the sh**.
She said to discuss it with my parents,
which I did, but she HAD to call.
And she told my mother to discuss it with my father,
which she was going to,
but my teacher still HAD to call.
What the bloody hell!

Sigh.
And I'm starting to detest english.
Just a little.
It's become so damn hard.
The marks I used to get were so high,
and yet right now it's just boderline passes.
My other classmates either got borderline passes or fails.
Heck, I don't want boderline passes!
I want to improve my english, too!
But I have no time to read books,
and my mother doesn't even allow me to buy storybooks.
She said, "Go library borrow la,"
but where got time?
Some more got time limit, I don't like it at all.
What if I can't finish reading it on time, since I don't have much time to read it, anyway?

Besides, I still have room for improvement in my sciences,
and my math and poa need serious help.
Damn.

Yours truly,
Belle♥

We are who we are.

Yesterday, I went to meet up with Becky to buy Lewis's birthday present.
I knew what exactly I wanted to buy for him;
the grey jacket from cotton on.
I searched Lotone, but there were only sizes M, L and XL.
Disappointed, we traveled to Causeway.
There weren't size M there, too.
So we tried our last resot, Yishun.
I practically screamed in dismay when I noticed that outlet didn't sell any of the jackets.

So I had no choice but to buy the M size at Lotone.
When I asked Becky to put it on to see how it looks like,
she was like, "Ohhhh, it's so nice!"
I was like, "I know,"
And she was like "I'm so gonna buy one for myself!"
At that point of time I felt kind of upset,
I didn't want her having the same clothes as my boyfriend!

And today, she mentioned that she was at Queensway shopping centre,
and that she found a size S for the jacket.
I have never ever felt so much regret buying something before.
And to make matters worse,
she told me there was a wider variety of the jackets;
black, white, grey, light brown, dark brown, blue, etc.
I felt jealousy stabbing at me, especially when she said "I'm looking for size XS for myself."
I know it's kind of absurd to be this jealous,
but I mean, who wants their boyfriend to own something that's the same as her girlfriend?
Fyi, Girlfriend as in sister-like friend, not that I'm lesbian.
And I know I should tell her face-to-face how I feel,
cause I know she would understand, but I feel so cowardly.
I think that I'm going too far.
Why should I restrict her from getting what she wants?
I tried reasoning it with myself, so I thought I might as well rant.
And Becky, if you're reading this, I'm sorry I'm such an 'S'.

*takes deep breaths*
I have been rather emotionally unstable this year.
Mostly due to stress.
School hasn't been rather nice, but what can I expect, it's sec4.
And when you're sec4, trust me, you wouldn't have much of a life.
Well, at least I still have 50% of my life right now.
Can't imagine what my life will become when I enter College or University.
>_>
Oh crap.

Sooo anyway..
Lessons are long and everyone's tired after school,
but when we reach home, we have to battle with homework.
The common tests just ended not too long ago,
and I was kind of happy when I got back my math paper.
I passed math the second time now in Secondary school.
(my math had always been lousy)
It's all thanks to you, dear. (:
Well, I have yet to get back my Biology, history and Poa paper,
but I can roughly estimate the failures.
So far, I've failed chinese by 8 marks and Social studies by 2.5marks.
English, math and chemistry were passes.
I'm pretty sure I'd fail my poa and history, too.

I hope I have enough time to get a better result next time..
Anyway, let's talk about the events which are going to come.
This coming friday is Lewis's birthday, but we both have cca. ):
I was thinking to invite him over to my house on Sunday,
but I'm not sure if my Dad would be at home or not.
Even if he's not, no one knows when he might come back.
Sigh.. I just hope that everything works out fine.

The following week after that I'd be having a STUDY cohort camp, oh god. -.-
Camps are supposed to be fun with all the campfires and sleep overs.
But noooo, we have to friggin do revisions and stuff.
-.-
And even so, I want to stay over somewhere after my camp,
but Amanda's having an actual camp and all, and Michelle hasn't been replying me.
I wonder why.
Maybe she's busy, but sometimes I think I did something to upset her.
Did I? I can't recall. If I really did, I'm sorry..

Hoping to meet up with Irwin soon, before my O's come.
We have no idea what to do, so we'd probably end up at town rotting away.
It would be good if Lewis can come, though.
Before sleeping last night I was all like,
"Oh god, there's so much work left to do.."
And right now, I haven't even started.
I tried my english homework, but it's..
Really tough.
There's still chinese (and idk where I threw them) and Social studies.
To top it off, there's still a biology test tomorrow.
But now, my mood is ruined and I have no appetite for dinner and I feel like dying once I look at my homework.
Sigh.
Life sucks.

Yours truly,
Belle♥

I've been realllllllyyyyyy rotting away my holidays.
:o
I didn't even have any motivation to blog.
Anyway, it's CHRISTMAS, people! :D

Candycanes, cookies and cupcakes!
Mmm-mmm! (:
So much has happened,
except for my stack of unfinished homework.
Help, anyone?
I mean, all there is...
MATH, MATH, MATH, MATH, MORE MATH, and oh, what'd you know?
CHINESE.
Friggin hell.
All the open endeded somemore.
I think I'm better off dead.

Okay anyway, let's talk about recent activities.
First off..
Where shall I start?
Hmm..
I finially got my very own black shorts, so I'm kindda happy.
But I need more clothes.
More more more.
MOREEEEEEEEE..
I want tees with deep meanings.
I want tees with crazy funky designs.
I want casual dresses that I can wear out without feeling overdressed.
I want more slippers, so I can have a different variety to match my clothes.
I want more skirts.. Pleated, plain, layered, nice ones will do.
I want more tops, so it's not your everyday t-shirt and shorts.
Damn, I want lots of stuff.

I notice that I've been more un-motivated and lazy.
First off, you don't see me posting any pictures anymore.
Secondly, I keep procrastinating on my hw and revision.
Just kill me.
I don't wanna be sec4. :/

Okay let's see..
Recently, I went to meet Lewis & his friend, Zi He again.
We went to Vivo for lunch, and walked to Sentosa to kill time.
Sooooo.. Took some pics, we walked around, visited some shops and Zi He bought the long bottled drink, the one you can get inside Universal  Studios and the push-cart outside Universal studios.
It was really ex la, $17+ i think?
Can't remember. Anyway, the bottle leaks and the plastic got dented although it seemed rather hardy.

Hmmm.. Recently, I got to take care of 2 kittens for 3 days.
It was fun, though somehow, oddly, I'm allergic to them.
Kept sneezing non-stop after handling them,
and it's only me.
Becky and my sister stayed with me with the kittens for the same amount of time,
but they didn't sneeze at all.
:o
Weird.

Poor kittens, they're left to be strays now.
):
I hope they live a good life.
Kindda good cause people feed the cats at that area.
So uh.. Kindda missing playing HITSUMS.
It's a maple story private server.
Found out I had a character named "AppleLolli", the same as my flyff acrobat.
Hahahahaha okay bye~

AND I DON'T WANNA BE SEC4! D:

Yours truly;
Belle♥

Do you know how afraid I was?

Oh my..
I am here to share the most terrifying mrt experiences I have ever had.
It was around 2pm and my sister (Mao) and I were rushing to YewTee as we were worried that we'd be late for her dental appointment.
We left the house straight after we showered,
so we didn't have any time for any food.

At Jurong East, we waited for Michy and her boyf to arrive.
Then it was train all the way to Outram.
I was really bored and all, and around the stops after Dover,
I was starting to feel slightly nauseous,
not sure whether it's cause of my motion sickness due to excessive staring at the iPhone,
but I clearly remembered that I usually would not get motion sickness on the mrt.
Especially not this bad.
I was feeling worser by the second.
Just a few minutes before I told Mao that I was bored.. And hungry.
And then it's like all of a sudden,
my vision seemed to be clouded with purple spots I'd usually see when I stand up after sitting down/lying down for too long. (Headrush)
I was staring at my sister when the purple spots blocked my entire vision.
I shut my eyes but there didn't seem to be any difference.
I panicked, and I told my sister, "I can't see!"
But my ears seemed to be blocked and I couldn't hear myself really well.
I got scared and all and placed my head on my sister's shoulder again,
wishing the nauseousness would fade soon.

Sometime later,
when I opened my eyes, I found myself sitting on the floor of the mrt.
In front of my face was Michy's,
but there were still purple spots framing her face.
I was in a daze, wondering how the heck did I end up on the floor.
Everyone in the train were staring at me at that point of time.
My sisters helped me up and a kind lady offered her seat to me.
I walked unsurely to the seat as my sisters and the lady guided me there.
As I sat there, I could feel all eyes on me and whisperings of people talking about me.
"What happened to her?" "Is she going to be okay?"
But as the purple spots invaded my eyesight again,
I started to feel scared that the same thing would happen.
My sister started to rummage through her bag and handed me a Vicks Candy,
followed by her water bottle.

I ate it and sat there for awhile,
and the purple spots did fade soon enough.
Then it was time to alight the train.
I, at that point of time, was kindda traumatized, confused and scared.
I forgot to thank the lady afterall..
After alighting, my sisters were discussing something.
Whether I could walk or not..
Michy asked if I would like to be carried so I unconciously nodded my head.
Next thing I knew,
her boyf scooped me up (princess hold) and we headed to the escalator.
As they walked, I could feel stares everywhere.
I covered my eyes with my hands as I wanted to shield everyone's stares and besides,
I still felt a little nauseous and maybe my vision was still purply.
On the way up, he was all like, "I'm not sure how long I can hold," lol.



He carried me all the way to the tap out area,
and I walked unstably to tap out.
Then we headed to the Mr Bean outlet right ahead and bought a set for me to eat.
My sisters left first while we were waiting for his order to be done.
Then afterwhich he filled me in on how pale I looked and how scared they had been.
Who knows why I fainted..
It could be either lack of oxygen or low blood sugar/pressure.
Anyway..
It was a really scary experience and I do hope that I won't faint ever again.
Thanks, everyone.

Yours truly;
Belle♥

Gonna go buy my birthday present w Becky & Mao tmr!
I can't wait, the perfect ideal hoodie is finally foundddddddddd. :D
But it's really costly, $80, you know..
I'm paying half and Becky will pay the other half. :D
Heeheeheehee..
And on Thursday I'd be at Meech's house..
Gonna have an awesome week. (:
But a horrible weekend cause I shall start doing my hw then. i-i
I must jiayou!

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start.

Hey people. :D
My immunity's bein kind of weak lately,
so I sort of had a flu + cough + fever on tuesday,
and the fever went off within the night.
The flu was still there, I suppose, cause my voice was all off-sounding.
The cough comes on and off least expected.
So I stayed home to rest the next day, which was Wednesday.
I knew I needed lots of sleep so I tried to stay in bed and sleep and sleep and sleep..
Until I couldn't fall asleep no more.

Uhhhhh... I.. then cooked plain porridge for myself though I had no appetite..
And everything tastes bland due to my flu I guess..
I think I watched tv a little.
Or alot.
The tv was showing kiddy shows all the way till 3pm and I had nothing to do so -_-
Screw it.
It's the holidays already, so why kiddy shows?!
It's not like we teenagers wake up so late anyway. >_>
Bah, can't remember the rest.
My muscles were still aching rather terribly from Monday's dance so I walked round the house like a penguin.
For dinner, daddy drove us to the foodcourt at yewtee.
Like I said, no appetite, so I didn't buy anything.

My sisters got a small bowl and gave me some of their yong tau foo,
which I ate it and wasn't rather happy about it cause I couldn't taste much.
The next day, (thursday) I met Lewis in the morning.
I was really excited and couldn't wait,
but I felt kind of nervous as I approached the steps with Momo on my shoulder.
I walked slowly and hesitantly, and I saw him sitting there, looking at me, smiling.

Things ran rather smoothly, I'd say,
and in the end we went out with my sister for a movie.
We were late and missed the first 20-30mins or so :/
But the movie was still as nice as I've hoped for.
Oh btw, we watched Rapunzel, a tangled tale.
After that I sent Lewis to the mrt station and accompanied my sister for awhile.
Then she had to meet her boyfriend so I went home.

I was hungry so I called Becky.
AMAZINGLY, she was like, "oh, okay," When I asked her for dinner.
o_o
I mean like, usually she would all be like, "I can't, my parents don't allow,"
or something along those lines.
And then I'd get all sad and go, "oh okay.. Nevermind then, bye."
then I'd usually end up cooking something at home which I'd be too lazy to wash up after.
So.. It was really cold and wet..
I still felt rather cold under my jacket, as I walked home to get more money.
Then headed to the bus stop, it was still drizzling rather heavily and boy, it was cold.
I boarded the bus and froze. Like literally.
My legs were so cold but I couldn't warm them up cause I was hugging myself to keep my upper body warm.

So anyway.. Had pasta mania for dinner.
I chose cheesy crumble.. Becky chose Meatball spag.
Sigh. I should really stop consuming cream bases cause it fills you up really fast and..
You'd get sick of the food really fast too, so you'd be all like, "ugh.. I don't wanna eat no more.."
But it's delicious in the beginning.. Before your tastebuds get numb with the flavour.
<_<

After dinner walked around, and at the pasar malam,
we saw Haiy, Izzat and a few others.
(We were linking elbows actually)
I was like, "Izzat!" and stretched my hand out which he shook.
Then one of them was like, "Where your boyfriend?"
so I replied, "At home,"
lol. ._.
Then blah blah this, and blah blah that and we took 307 home. :)


Which leaves us to today..
Dance was rather intense today..
With both Mr Peter and Xu lao shi,
we suffered twice as worse for our warmups..
Cause we had to do BOTH of the teacher's warm ups.
Sigh @_@
Plus, my tummy didn't feel that good..
 cause it was that time of the month..
Geez. And as usual, Yan Ping and I didn't get selected for the syf group.
Kind of dissapointed.
I feel like we have put in effort,
even until we have blue blacks on our knees and stuff and my ankle feels pain and stuff..
And although my nervousness was so pressurizing that it made me unable to balance properly..
This sucks.
Do we really suck that bad?

ANYWAY, I'd be staying over at Michelle's place next week.
Probably monday or something. :)
I can't decide whether I should stay for a night or two..
I'd be playing sims anyway. -w-
And we'd be window shopping for the first day..
I can't wait!

But it all means that I'd have to start doing at least some of my hw this weekend..
Cause I'm also going to Malaysia in December..

OH OH OH AND DID I MENTION..
The dance tee is finally "out"? :D
So happy.. (:
It looks awesome, though it didn't turn out as I had designed it to be..
The front words "DANCER" was supposed to be on the chest. (yes, chest.)
But it turned out to be somewhere on the lower half of my boobs.
-.-
Maybe if they were bigger it would've been perfect but oh well. >_>
The slogan is too low anyway. Not my fault.
And the dancers were supposed to be ALIGNED LEFT,
not in the friggin centre!!!! Dammit.. >_>

Yours truly;
Belle♥


Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes

Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize

It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie


And as long as I can feel you holding on

I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?



Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize

It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie

And as long as I can feel you holding on

I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

 I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start


I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

 When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide

When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside

It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me

You thought that you knew

 I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

 I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

 I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

 I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my, just myself

Just myself, myself, just myself

 I'm not perfect, but I keep trying..

-Perfect by Hedley.

It's like I can relate to this song so well..

Never thought things would go this way.

I feel bad.
Like, really, really bad.
All this while, I've been pulling this thing off as a "he's finding fault with me for everything",
but in the end I only realise that I was the one wrong every single time.
The only reason why we get into the same damn fights everytime was all cause I kept screwing up.
Why can't I ever learn?

Sometimes I really hate myself.
I always take things for granted and all,
and I always end up making my friends hurt or suffer.
Sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve such friends..

At first, I felt that Love is about loving them for who they are,
accepting one another's flaws and not forcing them to change anything,
cause you love them.
When I tried putting this theory on him,
I've only come to realise last night that that's exactly what he's been doing.
He's been giving me chances for every single mistake that I do,
even when it's repitition.
And now I feel terrible cause everything I have assumed about myself is wrong.
'I don't think I did anything wrong,' I'd say at first.
And after I realise what exactly I've done without realising is just..
You know.

Despite all that I have done to hurt him unintentionally,
he still forgives me cause he loves me.
I feel so foolish now when I come to look at it for myself.
Maybe I deserve to cry all night alone without having anyone else to turn to.
Maybe, just maybe.. I don't even deserve someone like him.

You are the best thing that's ever been mine.

Finally, an update!
Well... I didn't have much of an opportunity to get on the com recently so..
I took advantage of that with Becky's lappy. :)
Hmmm.. First of all, today was awesome cause..
Uh, well.. It's the last day of the extended lessons we sec3s had.
And we had free period after recess,
so we were allowed to go home, which was around 10am. :)

It was also awesome as I got to spend lots of time with Lewis..
Though I'd always be unsatisfied with the amount of time spent.
Not enough mah.. ._.
Oh well, I feel like sakae sushi. ):
Y'know, sashimi, sushis, kagiage.. Mmmmmm. -w-
Irwin was all like, "Jio me jio me! xD"
Rofl.
But must see first.. Cause not enough $$.
Awwww, I miss Irwin too. Damnnnnnn. :/

Catechism resumes this Sunday,
and I have no idea at all what to wear. :o
I was thinking my camera tee, but idk what to wear below.
It's not like I got any new bottoms anyway.
And then there's dance camp next monday..
Gonna sleep in the music room, kindda creeped out.
Cause you can see what's outside of the window, across the coridoor..
I don't even know if they'd on the lights.
Probably not.. ._.;
Plus, there's mirrors in the room.
And to top it off.. It is rumored to be haunted.
Eeeeeek. T-T

Well.. The good part of the camp is that we're allowed out of school for lunch for the first day,
and we'd only have dance practices in the afternoons.
And we also have slack time! Awesommeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D
Okay, I have absolutely no idea what else to say, so..


OH HAI THERE . :D

That was Becky. Forgive her, okay? (:
OKAY BYE! :D

Yours truly;
Belle♥

Ooh darling cause you'd always be my baby.

This one's supposed to be for yesterday. :)
But uh, didn't get a chance to get on the computah.

First of all, Happy 6th anniversary, dear! (:
It was a great day, actually.
But there were some problems before I got to see him today, so I was feeling kindda low.
After his last call, asking me to wait for him outside macs,
I said "Oh, okay.." moodily and headed to the direction of macs.
But a few steps later, someone grabbed me from the back and in his hands were a boquet of flowers,
right. in. front. of. me.
I stared.
o_o

No I mean, seriously?
I was so not expecting that!
God, I think he watches too much tv dramas. xD
I got scared cause I knew I couldn't keep the flowers,
but he said it's okay, he could throw them away.
But I did not agree to that, it would be too wasteful.
He tried to make me accept the flowers,
but being real self-concious and embarrassed, I didn't want to hold the boquet. i-i
But I did, eventually.
For a few seconds. >_>
Then I made him put it in a plastic bag before I allowed him to hold my hand.

Afterwhich, I had somewhat lost appetite for m.o.f ice-cream,
so we just headed to Vivo.
On the way to the train I gave him a present,
which is like super pathetic compared to what he gave me. ._.
We just bought gifts for each other on impulse without telling each other until we bought it.
So qiao right?! (Such a coincidence)
Walked around for an hour or two, then went to have lunch at Superdog.
I should stop going there to eat.
Super ex. ): <
It was super hot lah, the weather.
Extremely hot. And I think there's haze again. :/

So we spent most of our time indoors.
The cooling aircon, ahhhhh. -w-
Pet shop; bunnies!
And hammies and puppies. :D
Uh, there was this glass tank which said hermit crabs ($7), but we no see any crabs. :/
It would be really cool if we did, though.

Hmmm, after walking around we went to Jurong point. :D
Drank watermelon juice & starfruit juice(w lots of salt) cause I felt rather heaty.
Must be the heat.
Gah, Singapore is like a freakkin sauna + oven + barbeque.
We're all gonna BURNNNN/MELTTTTT!!
OHMYGOD! D: ~
Then when it was night time, we went to the park nearby.
it was really romantic, but damn alot of banglas, like wth.

Not trying to be racist or anything, but I don't like banglas at all.
All they do is to stare at you.
I call that molestation already.
But can't blame them cause we don't have any proof what goes through their minds when they stare at us.
Afterwhich, he sent me to my void deck and reassured me that everything would be alright.
Telling me that he would be there for me if anything happened.
and if my father really disapproves, he would still wait for me..
He then went to hide the boquet of flowers at our favourite spot,
which I took into my house later after knowing my parents weren't home,
just my sister and I.

Yours truly;
Belle♥

Labels: 6th monthsary♥

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are.

I haven't been updating much cause uh, y'know, exams..
Sigh, kill me already.
I hate exams.
Especially when the eoy papers are so hard, and you'd know you'd have to retain or something.

Gosh, I swear I need a new phone.
My nokia one dk like how old already.
Keeps hanging and stuff.
I can't stand it. -.-
If my father would agree to buying me a new phone,
which I'm not sure would be possible cause all the phones I've ever owned are from my sisters.
:/
2nd handed ones.
I want one with camera, radio, recording, messaging functions.
Of course not some lousy camera with a very low quality pics.
Something that I can actually SEE words clearly in the pic.
And the recording must be good too. x_x
The keypads count too, and so does the size of the phone.

Bah, I don't even think I can get one.
Anyway, I haven't even seen a phone that fits my description yet.
Of course not one too pricey.
Actually 3.2mp or less than 5mp would be nice already.
Maybe a nokia one, cause Sony Ericsson the msg tone will get cut off.
But I like sony ericsson.. ):
BAHHHH..

I need to go study with my sister now,
so yeah, kill me, I'm dead.

Yours truly;
Belle♥
 
 
This one's for Becky! (:
 

She always does this to me.

I can't stand it.
I think I need time to cool.
I know I've said that people had flaws, it's just how you accept them for who they are.
But somehow, everything else I've accepted.
All but this.
I don't understand why I have to get all worked up about it.
It's just a small issue.

But then.. Somehow it seems to affect me greatly.
I can't stand it.
She's been doing this to me ever since we've known each other years ago.
I bore with it, time to time again it happens.
And when I tell her, she'd be all like, "No, I didn't."
I couldn't tell if it was denial or really not knowing what she's doing angers me.
What bothers me more is that everytime she does things that I've once done before,
she does it so much better.

This is why it gets on my nerves.
She stole my ideas, gets away with it and guess what, they're so much better than mine.
I get all insecure again.
Fearing that other people would like her better than me.
My friends... I wonder who they prefer.
Well, I don't like comparisons, and I'm very sure no one does but..
I keep comparing myself to her.
Why is she better than me even though she's like, doing what I did.
Sometimes my jealousy gets the best out of me.
Why bother to tell anyone..
Where most of the time, I can see that my friends are happier with her than me.
Friends I've introduced.

I know it happened once with me, but that was different.
If given a chance, I wouldn't have fallen for that stupid guy last year.
But what now, really?
Should I just let her be, again?


Yours truly;
Belle♥

Why do we always run and hide, and get ourselves hurt in the end?

Can we pull through this avalanche?
-avalanche; Marie Digby.


I'm holding on with both hands cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you.
-never gonna be alone; Nickleback.


And all I scream for; "come please, i'm callin,"
and all I need from you; "hurry I'm fallin, I'm fallin,"
-saving me; Nickleback.


Cause everything you do and words you say; you know that it all takes my breath away and now i'm left with nothing..
-two is better than one; Boys like Girls.


I'm starting to trip, I'm losin my grip and i'm in this thing alone.
-losing grip; Avril Lavigne.


Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt. Every little bumpbon the road I tried to swerve.
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me.
-breathe; Taylor Swift.


All that i'm after is a life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you. I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after.
-life after you; Chris Daughtry.


Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame..
-stars; Switchfoot.


Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard, oh take me back to the start.
-the scientist; Coldplay.


I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand.
-if you are not the one; Daniel Bedingfield.


I feel; just around the corner, just around the corner's not enough. I feel; 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.
-40 kinds of sadness; Ryan Cabera.


And it feels like tonight, can't believe i'm broken inside. Can't you see that there's nothing I wanna do then try to make it up to you.
-feels like tonight; Chris Daughtry.



So many songs, words can't express.
Whatever happened to "There's not a thing I would change cause you're amazing just the way you are" by Bruno Mars?
There's so many things I wanna complain to you, to fight for my rights.
But what's the point..
Love is supposed to be unconditional, right?
Like dealing with someone's flaws and accepting them for who they are or who they've become.
Okay, I admit, I might've changed without realizing..
But everybody changes..

What if I didn't want to change?
What if I wanted to be exactly the same as 5 months back?
But you've changed too.
I don't know who's right or who's wrong.
But I know it's my fault.

You said you could read everything off my face,
then why did you misread my facial expression?
I was always this fragile, overly-sensitive.
Having negative thoughts whenever I felt insecure.
Then my imagination gets the best out of me and I get scared and cry.
All I do is to cry..
But why?
Crying doesn't help in any way.
But.. I can't help it if it hurts so much.

I know you hurt worse than I do,
but I really don't know.
Maybe, just maybe..
I'm not good enough for you.
Or is it cause you put too much expectations on me,
and get dissapointed when I fail in them?

We've been through so much and..
I know it may seem that I'm taking you for granted, or testing your patience,
but I'm struggling to keep you happy.
Maybe you can't tell, or maybe I don't put enough effort in it..
I just.. don't want to lose you.. in any way..


Yours truly;
Belle♥

It's alright, I'm okay, I think god can explain.

Hey thereeeee. :o

I woke up at 6am+ this morning cause I went to sleep when I reached home yesterday.
I vividly remembered my mother blaming me for not eating dinner..
Cause daddy went to buy it for me. ._.
But I totally forgot.
And just continued sleeping.

I dreamt of weird awesome stuff.
Like.. Being in what was supposed to be Vietnam,
but looked like china..
With Mrs Wong teaching in a mini classroom.
Then I headed to the pet shop outside and bought a bunny which costs like $60+,
and I handed them SG$. Wth? xD
I don't even know where I got that money from.
Then after that they talked about not allowing pets on board the airplane,
and shipping couldn't be done,
so I had to refund it on the spot. ):

Then after that I was moving into this mansion-like house?
Like wth? o_o
Then I saw Sze Yin & Sze Ting, along with Jun Yi and Jun wei.
And we were like, moving into the SAME damn house.
I swear my dreams are crazy.
Jun Yi & Jun Wei were from my kindergarten.
How the heck can I even recognize them?
Dreams are weird..
You have never seen the person before,
but you will know who they are.
I then  moved into this room with like what, two double beds, with an archway with a ladder that led to my sister's room's bed.
._.
I feel like having a Western-style breakfast now.

Okay..
Imma gonna blog about what happened this wednesday, 21st sept.
After my teacher released us, I headed over to Lewis's class.
Said bye to Becky and the rest, and headed home with Lewis.
Changed, grabbed my brown leather bag and stuffed my wallet, handphone, keys, etcetc.
And we headed to yewtee.
Only to realize my ez-link wasn't in my bag.
It was like drizzling or something?
Can't remember.

Then headed home and searched up and down for my ez-link.
Then Lewis made me sit in a cab to bpp.
Oh damn, I forgot to pay him back!
Then we walked ALL THE WAY to Mic's block,
which took us like, half an hour.
-_-

He then dumped a $10 note with me and ran away. ): <
Mic then hailed a cab and we were off to HillView to meet Alex.
She was on the phone,
so she didn't say hi to us.
Then I was like, joking with Michelle, saying,
"What, you expect her to suddenly turn around and say: Hi Mabel, Hi Michelle?"
She nodded.
Then Alex hung up her phone and spun around.
"Hi guys!" she exclaimed.
I started laughing like a retard.

Okay.. So we took 963 to Habourfront I guess?
Met Tina at Vivo.
I kindda liked her dresscode, lolol.
Alex and Michelle were like telling me to bow 90degrees in front of tina and introduce myself,
if not Tina would pull something out of her hair and whack the crap out of me.
Bullshit!! D:
I do admit it was kindda awkward in the beginning..
But after awhile we kindda clicked well..
We alighted and I saw the big globe thinggy with the words "Universal" on it, spinning around..
With the mist and stuff.
I was hungry.
I didn't have lunch. ):

Then it was to the chocolate shop.
Took some pics,
damn, the chocolates were super pricey!
Mic bought one Hershey's bar that was BIGGGG.
Cost her like $6++
Then we headed over to the que.
On the way there,
I saw Carin in the line, with one girl I can't remember her name.
They were like staring at each other, then at me, going, "Omg, is that Mabel?!"
Or something.
._.

While sitting at the que, I saw many people I recogniced.
Alicia, Teryn, Denise, Sheryl, Cheryl, Qian Ying..
When Qian Ying saw me, her hands immediately flew to my cheeks.
And she was like, exclaiming how pretty and cute I was.
I just sat there going o_o as I had no idea how to react.
When the theme park was opened,
everyone were on their feet, screaming and cheering.
I could hear some going "IT'S OPEN!!!"
And then we followed the crowd in.
There were people running about and the next thing I knew was..
I had to run to catch up with Alex and Tina.
They were both like, "Run, Mabel, run! Run, Michelle, run!"
By the time we reached the pizza palour, I was panting and had stitch. -.-
Then I was clutching my sides cause it hurts.

We shouldn't have ran. ):
We were the first people to reach there.
It wasn't really crowded anyway.
Everyone would be aiming for the rides.
"Oh, so when we're done eating and the people on the rides get hungry, this place would be filled up and the rides would be empty! And then we can go on the rides~! I'M SUCH A GENIUS!"
Tina exclaimed.

The pizza was HUGGEEEEEEE!
I was feeling rather full when I was about to finish my first slice.
But it's pepperoni.
Yummms. :)
The crust was those thin ones, so it tastes rather good when you fold it over like a sandwich.
Walked around, then sat on the madagascar-themed merry-go-round.
On the way there, we passed by this fountain where Tina was like,
"I can imagine Lewis kneeling down of you right here, with a ring in his hand, wanting to propose to you,"
Rofl?
Then went to watch Shrek in 4d.
The air behind your head was kindda annoying,
and so was the chair jerking here and there.
The water and the wind wasn't that bad..
I was feeling kindda nauseous by the time the movie ended.
x_x

Walked around some more,
saw Frankenstein, the 3 penguins from madagascar, Kungfu Panda Po, Puss in boots, Betty, etc etc.
Then they tricked me into riding the mummy's revenge!
I had to ask them over and over again if there was any doing downwards.
They said no!!
But after we'd put our bags in the locker,
and went through the maze-y like que, I chickened out.
The way to the ride was creepy enough.
There were eerie music and stuff, and it was rather dark.
There were chills running down my back and I felt cold all over.
During the whole entire ride,
I had my head down, one hand squeezing Mic's hand while the other, clutching the thing in front of me.
I could feel myself falling, I tensed my body more and more, trying to hold myself together in that position so that it would lessen the feeling that I was actually falling.
The sound effects were super loud and stuff.
-.-

At one time, I could feel heat carressing my neck and ears,
so I knew it was the fire thing Tina was talking about.
Despite the heat, chills were still running down my spine.
"How's Mabel?"
Tina asked at one point of time.
"Not good, she's scared shitless," Michelle replied.
"Oh no.." Alexandra and Tina said.
One time, I thought the ride was over, so I lifted my head up.
Wrong move.
It was dark and I couldn't remember much, though..

Nearing the end of the ride,
my right leg was like shaking up and down, like as if I was having spasm.
:/
By the time we got off the ride, my neck had gone stiff due to my tenseness.
Then Mich and Alex bought a drink each.
Saw Elvira, Dini, Ming Rui, Sasha there,
and they were like, "Mabel!"
"Do you recognice us?"
I was like, "yes.."
Then someone commented, "Her voice is so soft!"
Another one was like, "Her voice has ALWAYS been soft!"
I then looked at each one of them, saying their names each.
But I left out Ming Rui's, cause Idk.. She was staring but it was kindda awkward-ish..

We then went to watch the Live Donkey show.
Saw Jacob.
I was like staring at her, expecting something to happen.
and she was doing the same.
I thought it was pretty awkward..
In the end, she was like, "Hi, Mabel."
She had changed so much.
Not only her dresscode and stuff, but she has really changed.
Not that I could really remember their character but still.

Anyway, back to the donkey show.
It's really cool, it's actually some animation with Shrek's donkey in it,
and you can actually interact with it.
At first you think that it's some recording but uh, no, I think it can be controlled behind the scenes.
Inside the egypt area, there would be this mascot on stilts that looks like hooves,
with a headset of an animal's head..
Then he'd be like, half naked and look at you with a solemn face.
Like damn, I should've took a pic, so why didn't I?
His body was.. wow. :o

We took another 2 rides, the spinning one I waited for them outside cause I had motion sickness.
Afterwhich, Mic & Alex wanted to sit the mummy's revenge again.
So Tina accompanied me.
Michelle was all like, "Go bond with Tina!"
Lol.
It was rather awkward at first..
But she's a really nice person.
We sat outside the pizza palour and chatted about my love life (which Michelle had apparently told them about).
I was rather shocked at first that both Tina and Alex knew about each and every of my ex-s.
And the words they used to describe them.
Oh gosh. xD
I was complaining to Tina about how I felt "robbed off my privacy"
But she just laughed.
She was very interested in my current romance,
and she was all like, "Oh oh, tell me more, tell me more!"

She even complimented that we were a cute couple, though she hasn't seen us together before.
I mean, that was the first time I saw her.
Kay, she told me..
She was usually disgusted by couples but she thinks that Lewis & I are very cute together.
Like whaaaat? ._.

After that talk, we had to go as it was late, around 10 or 11+.
Waited outside with Alex's mum, Alex, Tina, Mic.
Then waited for Melissa(Mic's sister) and Alicia? (Alex's sister) (Not the Alicia I mentioned earlier.)
Then we were off..
Alex's parents were nice.
They drove me to my void deck although I've told them i'd be okay at Mic's house.

The very next day I kept snoozing my alarm cause I felt dead tired and I was actually feeling dizzy and nauseous.
So I didn't go school.
Ah, well..

Yours truly;
Belle♥

I feel like a tard now cause I realised that I can blog via iPhone.

Bah, I feel like having some ice cream now..
An ice lolly would be good, too.
Hmmmm.. School had its interesing and boring times today..
Uhhh, walked to school with becky.
Was kindda tempted to buy peach tea, but tried to resist.
Talked about jeff dunham all the way to school, lol.

You know, I actually did what was expected for my Chinese hw last night..
*is somewhat proud of self*
pe was uhhh, rather interesting, I might say.
I accompanied Kimberley in the hall,
watching haikal, Bryan and naufal play badmiton.
Afterwhich I joined in.
I suck lah, and naufal is like damn pro.
I did not need to move from my position,
just stand there in front of him in case those two jokers purposely hit the shuttlecock very gently.
Um, after some time, naufal and Bryan left to join dinu they all,
so haikal asked me to play with him.
My raquet was like spoilt, it would twist from the handle and I would miss the shuttlecock.
Damn annoying la.
Sometimes I'd try to adjust it after serving.
And most of the time i'd miss afterwards.
Um so here comes the funny part..
While I was playing with haikal,
a shuttlecock came flying towards my crotch..
Not that i'm a guy but I really dk what it's called for a female.
okay, it would really suck if I were a guy.

So upon hitting my over there,
I opened my eyes in shock and I folded onto the floor,
gasping. Cause that's not what you would experience on a daily basis.
Immediately, I heard something collapsing to the ground.
I turned over to look, and I saw Bernard on the floor, covering his eyes with his arm,
and rolling slightly from side to side.
I stood up and started laughing slightly,
and saw a few others who were lying on the floor like Bernard was.
From where I was, I could hear Jackson commenting, "Jin chuan, 你死了。。"
then I heard jin chuan going, "sorry Mabel, sorry sorry sorry!"
rofl. It was kindda awkward.
I then complained to desmond at that point of time,
saying "I feel so molested.."

When becky's class came down for pe later,
I complained to both lewis and becky.
Lewis laughed while becky gave me that look and backed away, xD
he then kidnapped my bag and escorted me to my class.
Mr singh didn't come today,
so there was an unfamiliar teacher waiting outside our class.
Lewis just stood outside my class, dumbfounded.
The teacher, not knowing that he was from another class,
ushered him in. "go in, go in, hurry up,"
he told us. Lewis started grinning from ear to ear.
He then joined us for our English free period since his pe lessons also like damn slack.
As cheryl was absent, I told him to sit there.
But then he pulled the chair over to my Table afterwards.
The teacher came and stood before me, asking lewis, "is she your girlfriend?"
"no Cher, she's my 'best friend'!" he exlaimed triumphly.
"really?" he asked.
"yah, really," I joined in the fun.
I looked at the teacher and literally "ha ha ha"-ed infront of him.
"if she's your best friend, you'd most probably marry her when you grow older," he said.
"huh, Cher why?" lewis pretented to act dumb.
I continued to ha-ha-ha.

after school I headed over to their class.
As they were having poa lessons, I just stepped in.
Lewis wasn't a poa student but was inside anyway.
And knowing mr neo, he most probably wouldn't mind.
Turns out I was right.

Becky offered me her drink,
and I tried to sip it through the straw.
But all I got was air.
"you have to go in deeper," she suggested.
"..go in deeper.." I repeated, trying not to laugh.
"ugh, Mabel!" she exclaimed and walked ahead.
"you ah," she'd rolled her eyes.
Lewis found that funny, too.
Mmmm, after that had lunch in school and said bye to becky.
Headed to our usual spot and waited for him to put the bags down.
Afterwhich, I just walked up and hugged him.
I've missed him so much.
Not cause I've never seen him,
but cause of what happened.

He hugged back tightly, and neither one of us wanted to let go.
My insecurity started to fade,
I was letting him reassure me.
1 hour passed away shortly after,
and he had to go home.
But none if us wanted to leave.
Exams are coming, too..

Yours truly;
Belle♥

I'm glad that things didn't go out of hand.

Dedicated to those who stayed by my side when I was extremely down; Becky, Kimberley, Desmond, Hazim, Dinu, Shakir, Atyqa and Yan Ping.

Things have been kind of rough for me for the past 2-3 days.
Especially when I was having my period.
It sort of happened on Sunday itself.
Um, it started out as a common problem; jealousy.
We walked to school together without saying a word yesterday.
I hated it.
It felt so awkward, and I felt terrible.
He finally talked to me after we'd put our bags down in school.
I was feeling really insecure and stuff, so I wasn't really able to look him in the eye.
Especially when his eyes looked kind of cold to me.

He scooped my hand up and sort of cradled it, but I did not respond.
Instead, I was looking around.
Only pausing for a second to check on him.
What was he thinking?
We were in school!
Was what I thought at that point of time.
He let go shortly after and left.
I looked up to see why.
Becky and Yong Rui arrived.

I refused to tell Becky anything at that point of time,
just constantly nodding or shaking my head.
She communicated with me via sms.
I ate slowly during recess, I felt rather lonely.
In our table were only Alan, Becky and I.
It felt rather weird that Lewis, Yong Rui and Desmond was not with us.
I shook the thought off.
We headed up to the hall for assembly after recess,
and Lewis called me over.
Nervous, I sat down and fiddled with my skirt.

He started talking to me.
Hazim and Dinu tried to playfully interfere,
but he chased them away.
His tone was fierce and frustrated, I could feel his anger.
I was scared of him.
I couldn't help but to struggle to keep eye contact with him.
I couldn't believe his last words.
"I give you 5 days. 5 days to think.. Then tell me if you still want to continue."
I gasped and struggled to keep my emotions in place.
He stood up and walked away.
That was when I couldn't take it any longer.

Hazim and Dinu then came, their expressions cheeky.
"What did he say?" they asked in a playful tone.
But stopped when they saw my eyes brimming with tears.
"Hey, Mabel, chill! Don't cry, don't cry!" they exclaimed.
I shook my head and walked away.
Kimberley was there for me,
and asked what happened.
She had witnessed his expression and knew it wasn't good.
Farzana offered me a tissue.
I hurriedly wiped away the tears that were spilling over.
The next few periods was me trying to hold myself together.
Mr Neo and Shi lao shi noticed.

Oh well, anyway..
I couldn't concentrate.
My mind kept reeling.. What he said..
What could he possibly mean?
That he didn't want me anymore?
Warm, wet tears sprung again.
My hand swept them away immediately.
Discussed with Becky about what to do or say to him on wednesday.
I ended up drafting a message.

That night, I had no appetite for dinner, although I was hungry.
I woke up the next morning, feeling kind of happy cause of the dream I had.
I was with him, everything felt so normal.
We held hands, and I had even put my head on his shoulder..
All these faded when I snapped a few seconds later.
I remembered his anger and got insecure again.
What if we won't ever be together again?
My mind reeled at the possibilities.
I walked to school quickly, I didn't touch my homework at all yesterday.
And I didn't even have breakfast.
In my messed up state, I forgot to bring my water bottle which I've already filled.

For recess, I just stared blankly ahead while Becky ate.
She then talked to him during recess.
I just followed YanPing and LianLing behind like a lifeless zombie.
Cause in my state of staring ahead for more than 20 mins, I remembered Becky telling me to join YanPing.
Then they headed to the hall, which was dark.
After replying Becky's sms of where I was,
I sat there waiting for her to come.
I couldn't believe what I saw.
He was walking towards me with Becky leading.
He dropped a bottle of green tea and 2 sandwiches into my arms.
Then he sat somewhere behind me.
I was kind of dazed and talking to Becky when he suddenly shot out his hands to prevent the ball from hitting us.
He then shouted at the boys who were playing with it and showed his middle fingers. (I think?)

He's still furious, I thought.
After school I read the smses I've recieved.
"Want to go out for lunch together?" it said.
I felt relieved; I've wanted to be with him and wanted him to ask me out.
So after settling his history ws, the four of us - Yong Rui, Lewis, Becky and I headed over to Yewtee.

After saying bye to YongRui, we headed to kfc.
Becky had smsed him "She was practically dead yesterday,"
:/
When Becky headed home, he and I talked.
So I guess it's over..

Yours truly;
Belle♥

I finally found you, my missing puzzlepiece..

"sorry for not updating for so long. Was too lazy to get on my lappy when I could use an iphone to get on facebook, msn, etc."
There's a kitty outside my house now.
In fact, it's been there for quite some time now.
I can't let it in, if not my parents will kill me.
Um, it seems it was was pretty smart to find a flap from the wire meshed gate of mine,
and it tries to climb in.
And gets stuck in between my door and gate for the second time now.
Idk what to do..
It's rather tame.
But rather silly also.
If open the door, it'd refuse to go out.
And if I free it it's probably going to get stuck there again.
Sighhhhh.

This thursday was fun. Met up with Lewis and then headed to yewtee to meet his friend,
Zi He. He told me that they were best friends,
just like Michelle and I.
Then headed to school, blah blah.
That Lewis ah.
Take so much food and expected me to finish it.
Although I was rather full by then.
He took like 2 slices of pizza,
and some finger food.
Which.. He keeps restocking.
After that I went home and changed,
and then met them again.

Unsure of how to spend the day,
we headed to Causeway and decided to see if there were any movies available.
Ended up we tried for Vampires suck.
We succeeded, and it was pretty awesome.
Though it's like.. Different from the original.
It's like Twilight, New moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn combined.
Cept that there wasn't any killing of Victoria or Bella getting pregnant.
And some footage that I've seen on the trailer didn't come out at all..
Like Alice from wonderland's "Where'd you go, silly rabbit?" line did not appear.
):

Overall, the movie was rather nice, though its a little confusing at times,
cause the sequence was all wrong but..
yeah, it's pretty dang awesome.
I guess I should try to free the kitty again..
I wish I can keep it.
Sigh.
And my homework's not really touched.

Yours truly;
Belle♥

I see your face in my mind as I drive away.

No one bothered about Awesome since Vietnam.. Until now.

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